I only lost virginity at 21 due to being orphaned and survival / life pressure coupled with anxiety stemming from my situation. I didn't like the girl that much and after a month or so called it quits. I couldn't believe how easily my friends would stick it in with such a flippiant and careless attitude. I saw many working class blue collar pregnancies that scared the hell out me, so no more relationships again till my 30th.
I can't help but feel the creators purpose or man and wife with regarding the sex act, that and being somewhat emo I hate hurting peoples feelings. It's a big deal with penetration takes the whole thing to another level that I wasn't prepared to deal with.
Mt thirties were spent catering to my cock's desires and back then tried the phone dating hook up scene prior internet. Luckily for me no pregnancies followed as there were a couple bareback moments.. stupid I know
Got into JW late thirties, dated a little could of led to marriage but again was me opting out before things got serious. Now I figure am just not cut out to be in any relationship. Basically sex equals marriage according to the scriptures..
Now in my fifties if an when I meet someone compatible no problems with it but there will have to be a serious long term relationship otherwise not worth the pain to me, freedom is my friend